Tired.

I'm so bummed out lately. I'm tired, have no motivation and I'm just plain sad. Sad all the time. Even the dog isn't cheering me up lately. I don't have the motivation to cook or clean so my house looks like a bomb hit it (ok, I'm exaggerating, I'm too retentive to let it get like that, but for me and my standards it's way past due for a cleaning.)

I just feel so - broken hearted. Discouraged. Depressed.

Yup, I'm droppin' the 'D' word. Today, honestly, I felt depressed.

I didn't want to eat, I didn't want to get out of bed yet I couldn't sleep. Insomnia seems to have me imprisoned again. But in the last two weeks it seems as though I can't get enough sleep. I could sleep 12 hours a day - easily. I get up, walk the dog, eat and then go to work. Come home, go to bed, repeat. Weekends are so lonely. But at the same time I don't want to be social. I just want to be at home in case my hubby calls me.

As the months drag on without my husband here with me it just gets more and more difficult to cope with everything. I want him to come home. I thought that I would get more used to him being away as time went on, that I would find living the 'single' life easier and easier. Not so.

So I feel broken hearted.